10 3 / 2013
So yesterday was my first gig as a bartender. it was at my sister’s friends B-day party. man did i mess up alot, but it the overall learning experience was worth it. i got a lot of bad looks sometimes when i would be taking my time pouring this cranberry juice or opening this bottle moscato. but i liked it, i also think ive mastered the keg now.
anywho, i don’t think they’ll hire me again, but if they do, ill be sure to tell them that they can pay me less until i get better at the job. bartending’s kinda cool, talk to folks, eavesdrop. the tips were okay, but im surprised they still paid me the agreed amount, i thought they would’ve docked my pay, which I would have understood. the job was tough, but like I said - enjoyed it overall.
P.S. it did help that i was dressed up pretty snazzy, i sucked at drinks but at least i looked good haha
P.S.S. it was also cool people-watching and making observations, a party with alcohol really reinforces the ascribed gender roles and you see how each person is supposed to live up to their expectations, sex-wise
i.e. “stop being a pussy and have another beer” as opposed to a guy telling a woman “damn, you’re going to have a 3rd beer?”
17 1 / 2013
sometimes im just scared of trying so hard and reaching really high in life only to end up failing at the last stage and fall all the way down after struggling so hard to get right at the top
i dont really believe in people “being afraid of success” but maybe there’s a kernel of truth to it
14 12 / 2012
so i was working yesterday and was invited by my supervisor to get some grub at the reception. the lecture was on some random topic that apparently only white folks between the ages of 29-70 care about
i tried to be a wallflower, but got caught up with an old white guy who was a professor at a nearby university. he seemed liked a cool guy and genuinely knowledgeable about the public school system, then came along a white old women. they started going off on a tangent on how race doesnt matter anymore since there are many Latina/os who are light skinned yet are 1st generation students with “normal” English and there are also dark-skinned Latina/os who are 3rd generation with no Spanish.
i didnt speak up since i didnt wanna ruffle any of our “prestigious” attendants ( i was on the job) and then the white lady started talking about how shes come to believe that its cultures that are responsible for the success of people. in her opinion of being a student in “urban” areas, she sees that Asian parents push their kids to be smart and thats why Asians are smart. She sees Latina/os as being hard workers, and their hard work “ethic” is why they are getting better in school. 1) SHE DIDNT MENTION WHITE STUDENTS (normalizes and makes ‘whiteness’ invisible and hidden to criticism and finally 2) she says that African-American students are not succeeding since the culture doesnt encourage education or “push” kids enough
so many things wrong 1) legimatizes segregation, 2) perpetuates stereotypes around asians and latinos 3) blames the victim 4)ahistorical of minority circumstances 5)cultural deficit theory
and of course, like all racists, she said “I’m not racist…but..”
You know, i read about racism everyday, listen to peoples experiences, have close friends who have been racially profiled, but when you see peoples blatant and sincere prejudice and racism in front of your own eyes, it leaves you shocked. i cant believe it happened to me and of course they felt telling me about this since theyre in a “safe space” with a bunch of white people and a Mexican-American with fair skin who blends in with that kind of crowd.
This is why I am involved with the community and our plans, this is why I’m a Chicana/o Studies major, this is why I bring up race and ethnicity in everything I see, cause folks are racist as folks and it needs to be address. end rant/
19 10 / 2012
Last night, Emanuel participated in the Mayoral Candidates Debate hosted by the Democratic Party of the San Fernando Valley (DPSFV). Emanuel, Wendy Greuel, Eric Garcetti, and Jan Perry all participated.
Here’s Emanuel’s opening statement, as prepared for delivery:
Good evening everyone. Thank you all for coming out, and thank you to the San Fernando Valley Democratic Party for hosting this event. Even in the middle of the Presidential Election, everyone here knows how important the next Mayoral election is for Los Angeles.
I’m grateful for the opportunity here tonight to speak with you about the City we all love, my home. We all know our City’s at a crossroads, and we need to decide where we want to be, and how we want to get there. Our current elected officials—some of them sitting on this stage with me tonight—tell us the City’s making progress on their watch. Reality is, that for many Angelenos, progress isn’t happening fast enough. Try telling the men and women still looking for a good-paying job here in Reseda and Arleta that we’re making progress. Try telling the victims of last week’s crimes in Van Nuys that the City’s never been safer. Try telling the residents of Pacoima that don’t have sidewalks or streetlights that the City’s making progress. Try telling our young people who are pushed out of our schools that there’s a City that cares about them and their future.
12 10 / 2012
I’m starting to notice a huge surge in white hipster movement towards Dia De Los Muertos related anything (sugar skulls, la catrina, etc.)
Omg this. Just looking at the tag for dia de Los muertos makes me want to break something =\
If you have no ties the culture or knowledge of the holiday, please take a seat.
forreal man im not even ready for all the ~muertos paint photos
28 9 / 2012
So I volunteered today at 2012 LA Care Harbor Clinic at the Los Angeles Sports Arena. It is a four day free medical, vision, and dental clinic that offers services and treatment to Southern California’s uninsured or under-insured.
Ever since I got my knee surgery, I’ve become sort of a healthcare policy/public health nerd in researching articles about insurances, U.S./intl healthcare and of course how it impacts large urban diverse communities, like - Los Angeles.
Today I witnessed two things that move my mind and heart. I saw people from all ages, race, ethnicity, (and yes) even immigration statuses that were frustrated, anxious, tired, irritated, and desperate as they reached the charitable feeder of volunteer healthcare. People were upset because they weren’t getting the right kind of treatment or were upset to find out the small problem that began 3 years ago was something now more complex that couldn’t be solved that day. It was an ugly & disheartening scene that worried me, it also kept me humble as to my own privileges.
I also saw something else that I wish I saw more often. Dentists that took a break from their perhaps comfortable private practice to give their attention to someone who could only imagine seeing this kind of medical professional within a for profit clinic. Optometrists & nurses were willing to spend their leisure afternoons and morning coffees to get into the nitty gritty of people’s well being. No doubt some health volunteers were there to meet service requirements or to pad their rèsumè but its something that I wish could be done on a larger scale.
Ultimately, I have these two conclusions: 1) Medicine and people’s well being cannot be a business, we really need to look out for each other, so this richest country that spends trillions on war, could pay for healthcare FOR ALL through single payer healthcare (google “HR 676 medicare for all” for more info) ……and 2) its not enough to feel bad about something and then casually put it in the back of your mind, if something makes you cringe and you struggle with blowing it off, perhaps that injustice needs your attention and sacrifice.