31 12 / 2013
privileged folks are literally so used to never being called out on their bullshit that when they finally are, they think it’s harassment
30 12 / 2013
24 9 / 2013
so my last year at UCLA is around the corner. i transferred there just about a year ago and i exceeded beyond my own wildest expectations. i thank many profe’s, T.A.’s, fellow students, parents, family, friends, and kind strangers that pointed me in the right direction.
however, with applying to grad school, full time load, working part time, and an internship - i really hope i haven’t bit off more than i can chew. that is, ive told myself (specifically this past Spring 13) that i would never overwhelm myself like that again, but i feel i might be doing that again this quarter. i just look at my syllabus for this Environmental Studies class and it looks like that takes the grand prize for an eloquent amount of work (field work + pop quizzes + 6 papers + surveying) in just one fucking class. i tell myself that i can pull off another productive quarter and succeed again, but who knows. i know i cant possibly be burning out this early in my college trajectory, but i hope i come across some good people who I can support and vice-versa, build that community in these tough times and classes coming up.
i also feel guilty since i will be taking a hiatus from an organizing space ive dedicated a good 2 years of my life to. i hope i dont regret stepping away and i pray they dont see me as a jerk/selfish fuck for stepping out while i try to figure my own stuff out. ill do my best to help when i can.
i have to remember to always take care of myself and remember to smile and appreciate the moments when someone takes 5 minutes to talk with me or invites to lunch or shares a laugh with me.
good luck to anyone starting a big part, continuing a significant part, or ending a phase in your life. paz y abrazos from east el lay.
22 9 / 2013
"You need to realize that the way you are feeling now will not be permanent."